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12 July 2005 @ 12:03 am
i think  
i have stopped writing. writing like i've done before, that is.

what is this disease that has gotten to me? my thoughts of late have been picked over by my ever restless mind, as always... yet instead of translating them into words after, they get evaporated into nothingness.

how fun. to exist in a non-existent way and then cease to exist altogether.

i guess i was running away. it's so easy to just report on my random activities from day to day. it's too easy. it also saves time. time which i don't have.

and energy... one mustn't forget energy. and sleep. i need sleep.
 
 
feelin': tiredtired
 
 
 
 Lee  (Tracy Lee, actually :)popcorn_feet on July 12th, 2005 04:07 pm (UTC)
Sometimes a rush of thoughts come all at once only they evaporate when I try and separate them (like untangling your hair when its knotted).... When I get them apart -*poof*- they dissolve...


I think alot too.


JVdrag0nette on July 13th, 2005 02:49 am (UTC)
yes, that's been happening alot. but this is strange to me because i wasn't like this in the past. i had a weird instinctive way of sifting and organising my thoughts, and wording them all out sentence by sentence.

and now, my brain is too tired.
 Lee  (Tracy Lee, actually :)popcorn_feet on July 13th, 2005 12:31 pm (UTC)
Right now - its stress for me - I know it... I always could handle lots of things and thoughts at the same time but when times get really really stressful doing that is much harder. if not impossible...

Im assuming when my stress level goes down it will go back to normal - but right now its just hard. feels like I cant think the way i used to...if that makes sense
JVdrag0nette on July 14th, 2005 03:27 am (UTC)
yes, i know what you mean.

when i'm busy or stressed out, i feel like my brain switches modes. it can either switch into minimal mode (where i become numb to everything and non-responsive except to get things done) or overdrive mode (where i become a little delirious and very hyper). in minimal mode, my brain cuts down on thinking, while overdrive just sends my mind into fruity-loops.
(Anonymous) on July 13th, 2005 05:52 pm (UTC)
never stop
my brain never stop working.... it's driving me nuts....
djasli
sdishy: thoughtfuldishysue on July 14th, 2005 02:53 pm (UTC)
ya i know wat u mean abt the dissolving or evaporating thots.. i suffer from that at times.. and also very recently. So what i do is to type it in my mobile or write it on a piece of paper nxt to me...
JVdrag0nette on July 16th, 2005 01:30 pm (UTC)
sometimes when i write those thoughts down on a temporary surface, it ceases to hold much meaning for me when i try to transfer those thoughts later on.

i write down corny jokes though. :)
sdishydishysue on July 17th, 2005 06:29 am (UTC)
yeah...i get you. and this also makes sense. there are thots that i want to elaborate when i have time. and when you do.... that moment has passed.
JVdrag0nette on July 17th, 2005 06:01 pm (UTC)
exactly!